STPM

STPM result release!
I get a bad result.
Since i was born, it was the worst result that i ever had.
At the stage that i have to make an important decision.

Just saw a post at facebook.
I saw one of my friend post at facebook: Since I was born , I always couldn't made my family proud , but she always did it.
The "she" means his sister. 
For my case, since i was born, i always made my family proud, but not for this time.

Two or more relatives had phone my mother and ask about my result.
I was so guilty that I can't let her proudly say my result.
And I become so sensitive when they phone to my mother.
I hate it.
FOR THIS TIME. 

Truly, i was sad.
I am lost. I don't know what can i do.
I don't know what should I choose to study.
Totally lost.

I am the one who will easily follow others..
Whoever gave me any suggestion, I will just easily follow what they say.
Then i make myself more confused.
I think i'm trying to find answer from them.
But until now, i found nothing.
Because I know, I just can find the answer from myself.
My boss told me, I was the person who very scared of making mistakes.
This type of person will think much much more before make any decision.
That's why we will lost many many opportunities.
Yes, I agree with it.
However, I really need to make a super CORRECT decision this time as it is my future.
No reason that I don't think twice about it.

EVERYTHING GONNA BE ALRIGHT.
RIGHT??